[listening to: Saviour by Lights]

So, I’m exhausted. Supposed to be writing a play. Want to sleeeeeep.

Yesterday was… is eventful the right word? I don’t know.
Point is A read my blog… and didn’t tell me. Even after I stressed that I didn’t want him to read it. Partially because he didn’t know I was talking to and hanging out with C, (Mind you at this point we really haven’t done either in a while… or rarely in the whatchamacallit talkingness) but also partially with the privacy this may as well be my diary bit. I got mad at him at first… but not so mad anymore. He has MUCH more reason to be mad at me. I completely understand his anger.
But being the perfect, loving, amazing boyfriend he is he didn’t even really yell at me. While he we were talking about it and he was mad he was still telling him he loved me and was kissing me.
Although the talk got interrupted when he told me that he was completely in love with me and nothing would change that. That kinda sent me into “holyshityou’reinlovewithmewhatdoidowhatdoidowhatdoidoiknowi’minlovewithyou
butyouACTUALLYareinlovewithmeandomgomgomgwow…” and then I hyper-ventilated, started crying and laughing at the same time and I think I scared him a little… point is… it finally hit me. I did possibly the worst thing I could to this relationship aside from leaving it and he is STILL in love with me and STILL wants to be with me and he’s crazy. And has NO idea what he’s gotten himself into. He’s not gonna leave me… wow if you could see me right now… I’m pretty much a smiling marshmallow about to burst into happy tears.
But right, problem at hand. Me and C talky talky, A findy outy, no happy. Me UH OH.
Funny thing is… I think this may have just made us stronger.
Right so I’m kinda all over the place and falling asleep and SO tired and I have to write a play and AGH!
Going to nap and write a play and then call my boyfriend… who for some reason is in love with me…

Crazy world we live in,

xoxo

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